my bf and i broke up

school is slapping me around like a cheap whore

and ive been a slave to Ruby Tuesdays

...

thats my life so sorry you all dont have my complete attention right now

but here's a cunt-ton of the sexiest/most inspirational/beautiful pics of all time

which i know is what you love the most 

SO

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 -RELATIONSHIPS-

the things between my bf and i was totally mutual, i dont want to be in a relationship

not that i dont love him

but i have been in sooo many fucking relationships, some long, some short

i have only had 1 one night stand in my life

but at this age i honestly feel like people shouldnt get into bf/gf status or take things too seriously

my boyfriend and i have been together since the day we met, like ridiculously obsessed with eachother, but i told him immediately i didnt want the bf/gf status

why?

because everything at the beginning of a new relationship is So exciting and its such a thrill,

the happiest time in a relationship is the beginning and i dont care what anyone says

im not saying go out and be a whore, when im seeing someone its just like we are exclusive and im not out running around with other guys

But here are my points

1.  when you become "official" you subconsciously have expectations of the other person and if/when they dont live up to them you're disappointed, people in relationships are constantly disappointed in eachother, even if they dont know it...thats why girls go crazy and guys get crazy jealous-if ur not at the status then most of the time those expectaions dont arise and you know you have nothing to be mad about, obviously there are some circumstances but its like your more relaxed (now if your seeing someone and they go out and fuck a bunch of ppl yea thats not ok and obviously that persons a douche and you need to move on)

2. Girls-Chill The Fuck Out- dont be crazy, dont overthink every single little situation, dont be insecure-if you have to fake confidence, Do it- sooner or later you wont have to fake it anymore because ur used to it, act like your the shit whether you think so or not, i gaurentee you other ppl are attracted to confidence (they dont know if its fake or not) but dont be  an egotistical little bitch either. but you have no idea how much guys love a girl that can do her own thing and doesnt need to be reassured that he likes her every 5 seconds, if hes giving you attention and only you, chill the fuck out obviously he likes you and like i said, if hes out being a whore, drop him (unless you wanna go out and slut it up a little bit too- which is acceptable to a point-every girl needs to)

3. YOU ARE YOUNG- if you are in a super serious relationship before you are 21 be ready for a shit show, its not about the bars or getting drunk and hooking up (i mean thats a big part of it most of the time) but you have no idea how many people are in the world! i try to meet someone new every day! no matter how happy you are in a relationship it does hold you back in some ways, single ppl have more motivation and TIME obviously to go out and follow their dreams!! travel, meet new people, experience LIFE before you get knocked up and ur broke and have no time or money to get outta the town you grew up in!

4. There are other fish in the sea! in my mind if a guy is acting sketchy or if we end our relationship (everything is a relationship from fuck buddy, friends, bf/gf whatever the situation) i honestly dont give a fuck, the biggest thing that happends to me is i get that sick little knot in my stomach because YES i do feel sad that this thing that was great at one time is either gone or changed but the best way to get over it is to meet someone new, get a distraction and you have a new adventure, there are millions of ppl in the world, dont let one single person make you not enjoy a single moment of YOUR life, its YOUR life make the BEST of it!

 

im not a relationship hater, im just sick of how fucking crazy our generation is, ppl need to get over the same old shit

the world has changed, ppl have changed, perceptions have changed, why does everyone do the same old shit!

try something NEW and try to make every single moment count!

if you're sad about something, the first thing you should do is take some sort of action to make that day the best it can be!

 

btw im not sad but i just want people to look at this and understand that we dont need to do what is expected

do what feels good,, whether you think its right or wrong- who gives a fuck, do it for you!

these are seriously some of the best

mother-effing pictures i have found in a long time

and if i only get 7 comments again

i will probably 

cry :(

 

 

 

oh and i have pics coming for u guys soon

i stopped the oxyelite so i could fast

im going on a pretty successfull 3 days

so i wanna keep going :) and see how far i can go!! wish me luck

happy le scrolling :)

seriously enjoy..motivation galorrreee

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

so i started oxyelite pro last week

(its a weight loss supplement basically, really decreases your appetite..so fasting would be super easy on this

but i dont reccommend doing it, it strips your body of so many vitamins and minerals)..

i take an extra multivitamin every day while im on this..buuttt so far

im definitely seeing a difference and i think by the end of this week ill post pics compared to the pics i took like whatever it was a week and a half ago

or something..

 

anyway im kind of sad right now

i'm really going back to my old thoughts of skinny

you know i post a lot of girls that aren't stick thin and i like boobs and i like butts

but for me personally like im SO short and i have A cups and NO butt

and i work out like a crazy fucking beast...and i was fine with the muscle ive gained

but now im just like so over it..i just wanna be super tiny..but still do it in a good way..kinda i suppose

im going to try a few different things throughout the next couple weeks and ill let you know what works best

cuz its like seriously right now, i work so hard and i eat the minimum for my meals but still have to incorporate everything i need in my calories but its like

ive hit a wall...i weigh like 112-114 right now and like trust me i know thats good but what does it matter if i dont look the way i want yet?

like i just want my thighs super tiny and everything just tiny like  i was last summer but with all my new muscle

UHG frustrated BUT

 

On the other hand...i revamped my workout

my thighs are getting crazy from running so i have to stop :(

mondays and fridays are now hard ab and back days...im in the gym for about an hour just doing different ab and back workouts

(if ur curious what i do, i seriously dont have a set routine..i mean a llittle bit but go to bodybuilding.com and get different workouts and just do different ones every time

ur muscle hit a wall when the same exact workouts r constantly repeated, some are standard of course tho that ill do all the time)

tuesdays and thursdays are now my cardio days...i will still run a little but my cardio will be from cycling or elliptical with no inclines or resistance..i CANT build any more leg muscle

wednesdays- upper body and arms...i'll sneak a little extra abs and back in this day if im not too sore..just cuz i frickin want crazy abs!

1 day, 36 comments?

Killed It 

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follow <3

pics of me..igh..why do i have to look fckin HUGE in pictures...

lately i have been going crazy with weights because i want to enter a fitness competition..

after that i wont do arms..so dont be freaked out when u see how jacked my shoulders are and stuff

its on purpose...and i promise i do have abs..they just dont show up in pics apparently...

more work i guess

 

and i just love this shirt so i had to do a sweet edit